I don't know how to express what I'm feeling right now. WEI has been a large part of Quatre's life since well before we began our relationship, and in my more honest moments I can admit to being jealous of the time he's devoted to it, as ridiculous as that is. It always seemed to me that the more time Quatre spent trying to get WEI under control, the more it needed his attention. Every victory came with half a dozen setbacks, and each day seemed to leave him more depleted than the last.
And now - it's only been a couple of days, but he's already much more relaxed. He's sleeping better. His smile is brighter, more genuine. The dark circles under his eyes have begun to fade away. His posture isn't as stiff, and when I place my hand on the back of his neck, it's harder to find the knots of tension that have been there.
I'm getting my Quatre back.
A few years ago, long before Quatre bought the house, we split up. We'd been photographed together in a restaurant holding hands across the table, and the picture ended up in the newspapers. We'd been trying to keep our relationship discreet, so as to spare Quatre any unneccesary trouble at WEI. He was still fairly new to the position of CEO, and had enough opposition amongst the Board and the stockholders, simply because of his age. Naturally, the pictures made things even more difficult for him, and eventually I just...left. At the time, I told myself it was better for him for me to go, but in truth I was angry and ashamed of myself for being angry. How foolish it seemed to feel threatened by his job. When he asked me to come back, I told myself that I could share him this time; that having some of his time was much better than none at all - and it was better, to have some rather than none. Now that I'll be getting more of his time, I feel like I've won a battle or vanquished an enemy. It's crazy, but there it is.
We've talked a bit about what we're going to do with ourselves now, but we haven't made any decisions yet. There's no rush. Quatre will still be handling matters for WEI, of course, but the time he'll have to commit to it will be cut in half, if not moreso. For the first time in a long while, I think, he feels free. Consequently, so do I. There are lots of things we might do, but fewer that we have
to do, and that alone is liberating.